P. A. Wilson,

WRITER.

I didn’t mean to

2023

I… didn’t mean 

to deceive you

I…never thought 

I would leave you

I…didn’t know 

how much I’d grieve you

When I said 

That I loved you

I couldn’t mean it more

But I left that Florida shore

Hurricanes couldn’t part us

But mania tore apart us

I… didn’t mean 

to deceive you

I…never thought 

I would leave you

I…didn’t know 

how much I’d grieve you

I started to

Miss your voice

Yet it was my choice 

That ripped us asunder

It is dragging me under

I… didn’t mean 

to deceive you

I…never thought 

I would leave you

I…didn’t know 

how much I’d grieve you

You said without you

I’d be lonely, I’d be fat

A bipolar baby that

Could never come back

I… didn’t mean 

to deceive you

I…never thought 

I would leave you

I…didn’t know 

how much I’d grieve you

I needed time, needed healing

Didn’t mean I lost the feeling 

The death knoll started pealing 

And this door was sealing

I… didn’t mean 

to deceive you

I…never thought 

I would leave you

I…didn’t know 

how much I’d grieve you

Now I feel alone

Even though I’m back home

But warmth has returned to my bones

And I admit that I have grown

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2 responses to “I didn’t mean to”

  1. slvrdrgn33 Avatar
    slvrdrgn33

    I like the repetition used here. It drives the point home.

    The flow is a bit choppy, which I take as sobs or breaths between the lines as you collect your thoughts.

    nice job!

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    1. P. A. Wilson Avatar
      P. A. Wilson

      I tried to mimic song lyrics with almost a repeating chorus. I struggled with the choppiness and decided to leave it. I’m glad it read as sobbing because that is fitting. Thank you for sharing your thoughts about it!

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